When working out
I have an inner voice
The one that’s supposed to push me when I can’t go on
Well mine creates excuses to stop
My inner voice has the best reasons
You walked far to the car today at the store
Why workout on top of that?
You never worked out before
Why start now?
You forgot to each lunch today at work
It evens out in the end anyway
And so on
Until I stop myself from the strenuous activities
Telling myself that whatever slacking off I just did
Was in fact a job well done
But there’s always tomorrow right?
Finding out you’re pregnant is magical
But your inner voice ultimately concludes
This has to come out of you somehow
There is no way around it
Then comes the time of being hugely pregnant with one
While still having to rock the other to sleep
Oliver struggled to get to sleep
Unless I held him over my protruding tummy
Bouncing back and forth on either foot
My legs burned
My stomach felt like it was about to tear off
My inner voice encouraged
DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO KEEP THAT KID ASLEEP!
It burned so badly that I caught a second wind
Until I knew for sure he would’t wake when I put him down
Another instance was Henry
His double ear infection and bronchiolitis
Caused him to miss a lot of sleep
In an effort to assist him
I began to pat his bottom
15 minutes later and he was still not completely under
My arm was on fire
No longer feeling like it was my extremity
Inner voice: HE NEEDS SLEEP, HE NEEDS SLEEP!
Finally, after 20 minutes
He’s fully asleep and my arm was ready to fall off
My inner voice always pushes for my kids’ well-being
But if I am at the gym…
Well, you did rock your kid to sleep and pat the other’s bottom
Why workout now?