Jess: Casey seems like he may be sick I love him I want to take care of him He burst through the door of our apartment Puking in the garbage can I start gagging Almost vomiting myself I love him but I leave the room I can still hear it I gag again He knows I… Continue reading Mom vs. Jess: What’s Disgusting?
Jess: Outside is noisy Work is noisy I just pop my headphones in Tune out the world It is peaceful, calm Nothing can destroy the sanctity of this moment Music isn't complete silence But it is containing my thoughts in one bubble One direction Not the lame boy band I have focus My mind is… Continue reading Mom vs. Jess: Moments of Silence
Jess: Casey realizes we have some extra cash Either we sold something on Craigslist or we won some money at the casino Maybe it's just a special occasion, like my birthday Red Lobster is our "fancy" restaurant of choice We get ready in our shared bathroom Pretending not to see each other before the final… Continue reading Mom vs. Jess: Fine Dining
June 7, 2016 Jess (Before Kids) Casey and I disagree about something Some comment was made, action was taken One person was left upset, angry Sometimes voices are raised, more hurtful comments hurtling Back and forth, hurting A lot of times I remove myself from the room Finding an empty room (usually the bathroom) to cry… Continue reading Mom vs. Jess: Arguments/Fights
March 15, 2016 Jess (Before Kids or Home Renovation) A slight chill runs to my bones Not too sure why I am cold Taking a bath sounds like a dream "Babe, I am taking a bath" I announce I grab a towel I'm pretty sure it's clean Really wishing I could afford nice bubble bath Instead… Continue reading Mom Vs. Jess: Taking a Bath
March 8, 2016 Jess (Before Kids or Home Renovation) A pile of dirty clothes Casey and mine Intertwined in an angry dance on the floor All get thrown into cheaply made laundry baskets of wire, plastic, and mesh We stop at the bank to get our weight in quarters before heading to the Laundromat We… Continue reading Mom vs. Jess: Doing Normal Household Chores
May 22, 2015 Jess (Before Oliver) Sitting home alone waiting for Casey to return from work I begin to feel the pang of hunger What do I feel like eating? The usual: Spaghetti While playing one of the various shows I watch I quickly boil some water, seasoned with salt Grabbing the very inefficient can… Continue reading Mom Vs. Jess: Cooking Dinner
April 2, 2015 Jess (Before Pregnancy) I look in the closet stacked with several options of clothes The decision is difficult due to the ocean of choices I am focused on finding something that matches Maybe, I'll match my bra and underwear today Go crazy and match my socks I go for it because I can and… Continue reading Mom Vs. Jess: Deciding What to Wear
Jess: I kind of have to pee Should I get up? I think of other things Like how good sleep feels Soon after I repress the urge Falling heavily back into sleep I wake up the next morning Refreshed As though my night Had never been disturbed. Mom (33 weeks): Do I want to get… Continue reading Mom Vs. Jess: Getting Up at Night to Pee
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